A shift in seasons

There's a change coming. I can feel it in my bones. It's like I can literally feel my universe shifting. I'm not sure what it is. All I know that something is going to change for me and soon.

Maybe it's the arrival of the new year that has me feeling this way. Maybe it's because of changes at my job or my relationships with people. It could be the approaching months of my 25 birthday that's giving me this feeling of restlessness.

I'll be 25 in three months and I still haven't figured out what I want to do with the rest of my life. I have no passion and I want to do something that I'm passionate about. Sure, my job at the newspaper in OK. But it's one of those comfortable jobs that's easy to get stuck in and will take you nowhere. I like the people that I work with and it's not like my job makes me miserable. It just doesn't make me extremely happy either. I'd like to figure out a way to tap into my talents (which in my opinion I have very little of) and find out what drives me.

I'm taking a semester off because I don't want to keep wasting money and time pursuing a degree in Journalism when it's not something I'm passionate about. That's one of the first changes that I'll be experiencing - having more time on my hands.

With all off this extra time I thought about taking up different hobbies to see what peaks my interests. I joined Gold's Gym and have been working out for about a month now. I've set a fitness goal for myself - to gain 15 pounds of muscle. I'm 5'5 and my weight has never been able to peak over 105 so I've been doing some weight training to help me pack on the pounds. I hope to reach my goal by the spring.

Come the first of the year, I'll be working first shift so that'll leave my nights free. I'd like to taking swimming lessons at the YMCA, take a Natural Hair styling and grooming seminar that CPCC is offering, may take up pilates and/or yoga.

I definitely want to work on forming new female friendships. For some reason at the moment I have more male friends. My best girlfriend Mandy, live in Maryland so I don't have any female friends near by that I've gotten close to. I have some female "associates" but I have yet to have formed that "girlfriend" bond with them.

I'd either like to plan a big vacation next year or move into my own place. I won't be able to financially to do both and the same time. The vacation will probably win out since I love to travel. Me and my friend Mandy were thinking about going to Miami in May for a week.

I don't know we'll see what the coming months will brings. I just know that during this time I'd like to do a lot of soul searching.